All this time, everything seemed so surreal. I was caught in so emotions. This pandemic is 100% real. The fear, the sadness, the losses, the chaos, these aren’t just stories. It’s real people, dying alone. And everyone around me, doing everything they can. Right now in this exact moment, I wish Cessna was here. I wish I could tell him everything about my night. I wish he was around to hold me and comfort me. I would give anything for that. Not only was it physically draining but it was mentally taxing. And I know this, serving in the adult ICU, is going to my life for the next few weeks, or months. I wish you were here Cessna.